Tuesday  finally classes started. I don't like the first day of classes. My new adviser is boring. She have luck of humor. She is my teacher in english. I have not yet met my other teachers. I don't like some of my new classmates. By the way that is my first expression to them. I hope this year is fun. I try to be good in different subjects. I dont want to talk to my new classmates. I just talked to my old classmates.I saw my ex-friend (the one who said i betray him and said I'm useless), i found out he is not my classmate. Its ok i admit i don't him to be my classmate again. For what he have done. He hurt my feelings.ok thats all! I hope tommorow will be fun. I hope!

Wednesday is bad. I really don't like my new adviser. It's so hot inside the room. Our room is in the biology laboratory. Our room is not yet done. It's still under constraction. I always saw my ex-friend with his new friends. I get mad everytime i saw his face and i heard his name. I want to punch him. I feel his shy everytime he saw me and I dont care.! What he have done and said to me, he should be shy.

Thursday is slight fun!  hehehe! my father ang my sister came back from the province.! I voted as the auditor of our section! Wow Its my first time to be an officer. I nominated as a president and vice! because my crazy classmate voted me! I'm so happy i didnt win.Its fun! I enjoy the games!. Thank god some of my classmates is humorous. If its not i really dont like the section. Our new adviser is really boring. I keep on laughing that time. Ok thats all!!

Saturday is fun i played badminton! with my friends! Its fun! We played for one hour! after that we ate at KFC. We also went to computer shop! we played DOTA! for two hours! I went back home tired so i just sleep!

Sunday is fathers day! we went to the church! I, my sister and my dad! We brought some foods! hehehe! thats all!  

Thursday is ok! i miss my xanga! im quite busy thats why i have no time to visit it! School is fine! I got closed with some of my classmates! I want to revenge!! HAHAHA! just kidding but sometimes when my day is bad!! i want to do that! hehehe! im talking to my friend but its ok now! i just use what happened as an inspiration! hahaha! thats all!

ThE song I cOmposeD

1. ItS killing mE 2.You Are the 1 3.PunK'd mE  4.Song 4 mY frIend

 5.WorLd of FriendshiP 6. Save your eYes frOm tEars 7. 143 (i Hate u) 8 HapPineSS

9. The Return of the Traitor (not yet done)  9. My last Love SonG

Monday is fun! Ohh I miss writing in my xanga! i just visited it and signed out! I have no enough time! by the way my friday is bad! i have a fever! Im at school that time i went to the clinic! i went back home. My father is the one who went to the clinic to fetch me! I didnt take the quiz in Filipino! i didnt attend the ACP and the club! I thought that day is the announcement of students who will qualify as an officer! i called my friend in the phone im in the house that time! resting... My friend said they still dont know who are qualify it is not yet announce! I dont know I felt a little nervous but its ok! Saturday i still suffered from fever but I'm slight ok that day! If I have no fever we will watch Superman! damn I had a fever! but my father said that we will watch next friday! i hope! Ei we have a new room! its done already! We evacuated from the biology laboratory finally! our new room is much better it has 5 electric fan! so its not hot!

Saturday is fun my father, I and my sisters went to sm megamall! We went there to watch superman! THe movie is really great! The effect is nice! I dont like the screen it is quite small compared to other cinemas! But its ok! By the way last friday we had an ACP meeting! The announcement of the students who will qualify as an officer is suspended again! i dont know if I'm excited! or nervous! I loose faith! that i will be qualify! There are some which is not deserving! I felt mad! But I should accept that!Life is really unfair! Ok i'm done

Xanga is now boring! I neeed COMMENTS!

This past days is really great! the classes was suspended! because of storm! This saturday the rain stoped! I just spend my time resting, listening to musics and trying to compose a song again! The birthday of my sister is near! and also my birthday im turning to 16! HAHAHA! Ei our test is near so I need to review my lessons!  I really hate test! but its a part of being student! DAMN. My new classmates is fun but some are boastful! Its ok I dont want to waste my time for that kind of people! Im happy now! I learned how to forgive! and i knew how to be happy! I should forgive the people who hurt me! ok thats all

I   MY

Sunday is fine! Tommorow is my sister's birthday. Im busy reviewing my lessons! Wow i'm  a good boy There is something wrong with me? Mabe i'm sick! Just kidding!

Monday is fine! We took a test! Physics is really hard! Now i want to rest and review again! Tommorow we have another test! Ok thats all!

July 23, 2006

Today is my birthday! yesterday is bad! we have a cheering copetition! on thursday so we need to practice were late! compared to other sections! There was a fight between my two classmates! that is one of the reason why we cannot make some steps! we have a plan but its useless because there something happened! which is the reason why some quited! I felt mad that time! really mad! I try to convince them not to quit! but they dont like! i felt glad when they said that they change their mind! They said they will never quit that's there birthday gift to me! thank god!

When i wakeup in the mornin' i felt sad! because its raining! i went to church with my sister!we have a practice that time! i just prayed that i hope that I will celebrate my birthaday with my friends! i thought it was my saddest birthday because they are quite busy that time because they have also practice! but i get touched because they came to my birthday although its raining! Thank God I celebrated my birthday with them! I think thats one of my greatest! and memorable event in my life! happy birthday to me!

Hahaha! im very happy

Sunday is great! we went to church! This day is exciting.. There are two reasons why im happy! First, My father will go back home! Later we will fetch him at the airport! Lol! hehehe.. Second, because i knew that the classes will be start on june 13, i thought it was on june 5 hahaha! so i have two weeks left to enjoy the vacation! ok thats all!

Monday! is cute!  it is the first day of my father here! hehehe! he bought some chocolates but it is few! hehehe! today i try to compose a song! it is not finished the chorus is not yet done! the title of the song is punk'd me! i dedicate it to the people who is selfish, insensitive! and love to insult others! hahaha! so i just tell you if it is already finish! ok im done!

Tuesday  is great! we went to the office of my father, me and my sister! After that we went to the robinson manila! together with my father's chums! We ate in a food court! The restaurant is "eat all you can" hahaha! there are different kind of foods! hahaha! you can eat all of that! if you are crazy hehehehe  I ate 2 plates of food! hahah!a im so hungry! My stomach is full! I cant take it! i want to vomit! joke! after we eat we went back to the office! and after that we went to sm manila to fetch my sister! We met her, and we went to the 3rd floor to buy shoes! my sister didnt find the shoes that she like!s she said that she saw also the shoes in the Isetan mall! so we went there! after how many hours finally she found it! after we brought the shoes! i told my father to buy me shades! so we went to the store! we spent alot of time there! laughing because we cant find a nice shade! finally a found one! but i dont like that! we felt that the woman got mad! so i just buy that! although i dont like the shades! hehehe after that we went back home! it is already 6:30 pm! if i just remember! my father and us have a plan to watch movie on thursday! i hope so... hehehe ok im done

Wednesday is a memorable one! My father and I went to my cousin’s house! I thought we were sleep there… It is already 11:30 pm me, my cousins and their cousins watching movie… First we watched Slither but we decided to change it! We just watched Scary movie 4. The movie is fun! Hahaha!  My father came he said that we were go home! I cannot contradict his decision.. He drunk that night! It’s already quarter to 12 o clock! We stay in the highway for a long time! Because he drunk! He just talking about a lot of things but I knew that he knows what he was talking about! He said that I should not be afraid like him. We just rode in the taxi! Inside the taxi he keeps on talking! He was kidding me. We went back home and the gate is locked! I knocked many times but nobody open the gate! We just go to our neighborhood to call them! My father and I ate first before going to sleep. All of them is not yet sleeping. My father and my aunt talked about “debts” My father is in my back. I’m ready to sleep that time. My father called my sister who is doing her homework. He hugged my sister and he cried. A lot of words came out in his mouth! He said to my sister that do not disappoint him. He said that he love us and he begged to give him strength. He claimed that although we have a lot of debts at least we are studying. He also said that he will do his best even though he is tired just for us. I really get touch of what he said. I cannot control myself to cry but they didn’t know. My sister tried to comfort my father. My sister and my mother heard that so they went inside the room. My sister is also crying. My father is my back he hugged me and I heard he was crying. That night is so weird. I cherish that night so I have an inspiration to study well and to do my best not just for my father but to the whole family.

Sunday is fun we went to our cousins house.  There was alot of food there. Its the birthday of my cousin and also the blessing of their new house. Its fun i met my relatives.I saw my cousins which is bigger now. We stayed there till evening. If i just remember we went back home at 7:30.

Tuesday is boring... again??? hehehe My father and my sister will go to the province. Im sad because my father don't allow me to go there. My classes is on tuesday. My sister has no classes because she is graduated. She's busy finding job. They will stay there for a week if i will go there i will be absent. I dont like to be absent on the first day of classes. I miss our province. It's almost 8 years since i went there. I miss the lake, our house there which is made up of wood hehehe, my cousins and all my relatives there. ok! hehehe ei finally finished the song i'm busy now writing my fourth song. I have a tune and lyrics but it is not yet done. There is no title yet and its is slow. Ok thats all.

Thursday is still boring. I'm here in the computer shop. We have no internet card in the house. I'm searching for chords. By the way the 4th song is already finished. The title is S4MF (song for my friends).. Hehehe the lyrics is great. It is all about saying goodbye to your friends. My father and my sister will go to province tommorow. My father said they will stay there for 3 days only. I hope so.. I want to write another song. The first stanza is done and the chorus but im not satisfied hehehe i want to improve that. The title is "The Return of the Traitor". I hope that i finish that song. Ok im done.

Friday is fine! Today my father and my sister will go to the province. I'm in the c omputer shop near in our school because i will buy my books.  Classes is near, 3 days left. My father borrowed the cell of my uncle which i'm using. I have no cellphone right now but it's ok. That's all! i just want to visit my xanga

Sunday i went to church. My father and my sister is in the province now. two days left the vacation is finally over. I don't know is i am excited or not. It is so boring inside the house so i want that the vacation is over, i want to go to school but sometimes i don't want. hehehe. Ok im done. I don't know, no one comment me on xanga now. i think all of them have no time to vist their xanga.

Monday is slight boring. Ahhmm tommorow is the start of classes. Im slight excited. I'm ready to face my new classmates. I hope they are friendly. So later i will fix my things ok that's all.

Ei! XaNga is REaLLy GrEaT

I hate saturday!   I hate the people inside the house! They are always debating, fighting and arguing about different stuffs! Especially my aunt and my foolish uncle!. It is really annoying! Both of them are crazy! There is always a conflict between them! My aunt said im an animal and im bad! She spoke that i have been influenced by my uncle! According to her I saw my uncle bad treats and I immitate him!I dont know! I just want to speak up for myself! thats it! but they always claimed that it is a mistake. They always saw my mistakes and make it right but they dont know how to correct their own mistakes! Im stupid! careless and bad and i admit that! and i dont know! it is really difference how i treat them compared to my classmates and friends!.. Thats the way they raised me up! My aunt is over acting, she is always mad! she is tactless!Im not vocal inside the house about my problems! I just tell it to my friends! Im not comfortable to tell different stuffs to them! Im expressive in the house in terms of my feeling! they know when im mad or sad! I just stamp my feet, and close the door over causing a loud sounds! Hehehe and my aunt and my mother get mad with me! because according to them it is bad! and im agree with that! I JUST DO that because im mad and also to express my feelings! I dont know sometimes they are ok but there are times that they are cold! we have different likes. Sometimes they oppose what i like! especially when im playing music! They want to turn it off! I always get mad! with that! ok im done

Sunday is mothers day! i went to church with my sisters! my mom is not with us! When we went back home! I kissed my mother and greet her a happy mothers day! My sisters also did that! We have no gift to my mother! but i think she understand that we have no money to buy her some gifts!

Wednesday ahhhmm ! hehehe today?? im fine! the day is so fast! Im worry that when i wake up it is already schools! I dont want to go to school yet! I want to enjoy my vacation! it is so boring! I need to do something! grrr!!

Friday is ahmm! I dont know what to say! hehehe! my friday is just an ordinary day!. I just spent my time in txting! Yes! it is really good! Im addicted to it!! especially when you are unlimited! hahaha I just borrowed the cellphone of my uncle! Compare to my cellphone that lost!! my cellphone is much better! but it is ok! hahaha! i have no right to complain! i just borrowing hehehe! I dont know the time is so fast! hahaha! My father will go home now! haha  it is near! im not excited! hahaha!.. It is better if he will come back home with a pack of money! but the sad is he will come back with the pack of debts hahaha just kidding!! 

I hate sunday! it boring agin! i hate my sister! she put the internet chord somwhere! It is difficult to find it! my aunt knew where it is! but she is so selfish!.. i just go to computer shop! hahaha thank god my uncle gave me some money! My uncle is really good now! Finally he has a job! his being frustrated seaman is over hehehe!

Ei! Monday is worst! My friend got mad with me! I don’t know what is the reason! I texted him a quote and he replied that he is not shy because im not a true friend! He said that I betrayed him! He said his ex-girlfriend say something in him!  I Don’t know what is that thing!. I got curious so I talked to his ex-girlfriend! Who’s also my friend about this matter!. She told me that she just said to her ex-boyfriend that she got mad when I and him talked on the phone!.. If it is true! I think that he just thought that I say something to her ex-girlfriend! Yes I admit that I say something but it is not my intention to betray him! I just want to comfort his ex girlfriend that time! I didn’t say a word that will offend him! What I’ve done is not a mistake! If I am in his position! I don’t tell that things! I just ask a conversation!.. I just shocked!  Of what he said! I told him that he is so over acting! He opposed what I said! He exclaimed that I’m the one who is over acting! I immediately get mad with them always! I told him that I value them that’s the reason why I always over act of what they are doing!, because it is really hurts. They always hurt me especially when the time they left me. I’m always alone! And its killing me. I pity myself and I felt so pathetic that time but I never get mad with them!!! What happening right now?? In just a simple thing he claimed that I’m not a good friend! That I betrayed him! What the heck he is! If I’m not a good friend! What they think they are!. He also said that I did not understand him! If I’m not understand them I will quit our circle of friends immediately. God knows how I love them! I just hope that he will realize what he have done is really hurt! He just want to express his anger without thinking the feelings of other! Like what he have done.

Thursday is good! I feel much better now! LOL! I composed 2 songs hehehe! i just want to express my feelings, my anger, my sadness hehehe Lol! the first song i compose is really good! the song is sad hehehe the title is "Its killing me" They are few lines there which i dedicate to my friends! There are lines there saying " they treat me like a dirt the just pick me when they are in need and after they used they throw me somewhere! hehehe like what bili's said to me hehehe she is my friend in xanga! I just realize that were not friends were just click! hehehe! They like a stones! They are so unfeeling! they are so numb! When i punch them im the one who will hurts while them they didnt feel it! They really like a stone! they have no heart! Hehehe the second song is titled "You are the one" i dont know why i wrote that song! The tune just stuck in my mind! so i put some lyrics! hehehe

I just want to thank  all my friends here in xanga! Bili you are really great thanks for the advice! Even though we don know each other alot.. You understand! Thanks also to Mariz Pineda you are a good friend! You rock girl! I appreciate what you are doing! you are awesome friend! i hope our friendship will last!

Friday is ok! sometimes i felt so mad! i just remember what my friend said! I thought he considered her ex girlfriend as an enemy! Because he got mad easily. He didnt think that i just put myself in the middle because both of them is my friend! He didnt appreciate what i have done! The time when i pray for him when he has a problem, the time when i help him when he is in need!, the time i was there to listen... i have no plan to apologize to him!

Im toO saD.. Im stupid!! im careless! Damn!!

(MAY 2, 2006) Tuesday is too bad! Im so stupiD!!  I lost my CellpHone!!... When My aunt knew it she got mad in me and also my mom!.. When thEy saw me crying they just comfort me. They said it is ok!!.. But for me it is not Ok.. I always lost something!! I am so careless! I had lost my wallet, money and a lot of things.. Im too sad.. Especially toDay!. We have a financial pRoblem!.. I pity my mother!.. My father texted us!.. He said he will go home this monTh.. There Office did not allowed him to extend!! When my moTher knew that.. i saw the sad on her face!.. I miss my father.. not only me but all of us!!. But we need to sacrifice because we have a problem financially! I just wondering why this things happened .. Maybe Im too bad!! I always praying that things will be ok!! And i know that God is always there for us!! I just pray to the one who stole my cellphone!! He/she is CrazY!! 

(May 3, 2006) I  woke up early this Wednesday!! I really miss my cellphone!!! When i woke up, this morning I search for my cellphone!!!! But i remembered that is already gone !!! I have a thought that it is still with me! Sh*** what happening to me... Its killing mE! I goT CraZy

(May 7,2006) Sunday! is great!! I watched last night the mtv asia award!! Even though im too sleepy! Rivermaya (band here in the philippines) won for the favorite artist in the philippines! They doing great!! And they perfomed in the stage with their song You'll be safe here! I really love their performanced!! And i saw the crowd attention to them... And i pretty sure they love Rivermaya's performance that night!! I got mad because my chemical romance video "Helena" did not won for the favorite video... Korn grabbed the award!! for their video.. They did not deserving!! Honestly! I dont like the band..and their loud music really irritates my ears!! I will accept if ever greenday win!! they are also deserving! Their video "wake me up when september ends" is great!.. I did not watch the whole show.. so i will watch the replay.. To know if my chemical romance grab an award!! because they have alot of nominations! ok im done!

(MAy 8, 2006) Monday is damn!!  I went to school to buy some books but before that i lost my ring.. in the bathroom. I just put it in somewhere.. Suddenly it fell in the hole... I try to get it but i cant... My mom didnt know that thing! only my sister.. and i begged her to tell to my mom what happen. So I dont know what will happen after i go home... I hope i get that!!

(May 9, 2006) Tuesday is slight ok!  When i went back home yesterday! My mom not yet know that i lost my ring! My sister is the one who told what happened in my aunt! Obviously my aunt said im stupid again! We try our best to get the ring in the hole! And it is hard! My uncle went back home. i begged him! to try if he can get that stupid ring! we knew that he is expert in that things! Im happy becuase he got that! My uncle is so talented!! Hahaha! Just kidding

(May 10, 2006) WeDnesDay! Is rainy day! I'm so glad! I love rainy seasons! I feel much better. LOL! hehehe It is slight cold. That's why I wore t-shirt today. This past days i always wore sando because it is too hot!

(May 11,2006) Thursday is too hot! The rain is over! Its so hot again! My parents arguing about my course! I dont know what course i will take in collage! I have no plan yet! I have plan but it always changing! I am a person who have no permanent dream in life! I cant find my dream! Hahaha! sounds weird but its true! Most of my classmates have a plan what course they will take in collage! My mother want me to take nurse! and i will proceed that in doctor! My uncle hissed! He said that it is much better if i take seaman! Like my father! He said that seaman is nice job! you can travel in different countries! But i dont like that! I dont want to get away with my soon to be family! like my father now! I want to be close to my future sons and daughters! And i thought my father didnt want me to be a seaman too! I had plan to take my college life! in ust (UNIVERSITY OF STO. THOMAS) but LiKE WHAT i said before i dont no yet what course i will take! Sometimes i want to be an artist, My mom and my father also like that ! I want also to have a band! because im a music lover! But my dreams always changing! Now i have no plan yet! i just thinking about my fourth-year life! thats all!           

im alone

APRIL 17 - 22

hey... monday is cool..... Today is the first meeting of the summer training....... hahahaha i got nervous because we should have deliver a speech... about our expectation in the summer training.. thank god i delivered my speech well... Im happy today although my friends is snobbish that day.. but its ok i get use to it..... hehehehehe im always alone... while they are with their new friends now........ ....

hahaha tuesday is sad... im alone again.... i dont know...... my friends have a new circle of friendss.... i dont know even though im with other friends... im sad... I miss our bonding.... ...

Wednesday is quite good...finally i tell crouse about my problem with them.... I tell that im sad because they are have new friends now... First, our conversation.. is not clear...... because we are not understand each other... but after that he said sorry to me...i dont know... im not expecting too much now from them... it is enough that he knows what i am feeling right now... Im just hurt of what he has said.. i think he not understand all.. Its ok.. I love them..they are still my friends... no doubts, no limits and exactly no ends... 

My Saturday

APRIL 23-29

LeT sEe wHat wiLl happen thiS wEeK

TUESDAY is  fun although im too tired because of the c.o.c.c. Im so tired today..  LOL! 3 days left cocc is finally over so just be patient!! OK !!hahahahaha!!  

Wednesday is slight bad!  I hate the people who loves to insult the person who commit mistakes!! What the heck are they??  It is right to correct the mistakes of others, but it is not good to tell him/her mistakes in front of many people! That is so embarrassing! That is what happened in cocc today!! Some of the cocc laughed of what the officers done in my co-cocc! They have no right to do that! They also commit mistakes! Remember the person who had no failure have less victories

Thursday is little nervous… We should deliver a military speech in front of  the officers and our fellow cocc. The nervous part there.. is when you pick a paper.. inside the paper is the topic that you should explain… Thank god!.. im so lucky because I picked an easy topic which is all about”bisexual”.. hahahaha. Each of us gave a one minute to think! I’m very thankful to God because I delivered my speech well hehehehehe.. Before I stand in front to deliver a speech.. I pray first!.. After that is the most exciting part of c.o.c.c finally comes. Where we should eat the food in the table. It is not an ordinary food.. It is different kind of food that combined together.. It looks disgusting and it smells not good but we must eat that. I just ate little because I cannot take it anymore. It is too hot because there has a spicy ingredients mixed in the food.. hahaha that is so memorable experience. There is no meeting of c.o.c.c tomorrow. I spend my time to rest. Saturday is the last meeting of c.o.c.c

SaTurday is great!! eventhough im so tired because of c.o.c.c!! Finally it is vacation time!! Finally c.o.c.c is over!!! I am graduated now from being a... hehehehehe.. finally i cannot see anymore the scary face of the officers  hahaha!! LOL!  But i wiil miss them!! I will cherish all the punishments that all the officers gave to me... but i think it is not yet over!!  It is just starting!!! I getting nervous because i always worry that i am not qualify as an officer.. The test that gave on us is so hard... Im always worry that i cannot pass the test.. The test is 45%.. oH my God if i not passed that im not hoping anymore to qualify as an officer..  

Sunday is too hot!!! i feel the suumer now!!! I have a problem but it is not too big !! I just heard a while ago that my mother have a plan to stop the studies of my sister in college... just for 3 months.. Because of our financial problem..  I just praying that it will not be happen...