I'm living with a happy life now! And i dont let anyone Obliterate It

I dont know whats going on! I got pissed with my friend! Where not that close! i just remember i post her in my xanga! I just said something! i spoke that she changed! she replied defiantly that if i have some proof that she change! i hate the tone of her voice and her face when she said that! Maybe she just mad that time but its not reasonable! thats only my opinion! I thought she will realize if i will say that! but im very disappointed! i snobbed her when i saw her! i didnt do that in purpose! i dont know why i did that! mabye it is only a part of misunderstanding! I try to understand but i cant! i know if i am the one who committed mistake! i dont want to think that things! Im tired to think stuffs about friendship! i got used to it!

I’m an excellent ill fated person today! Happiness suddenly deprived!!! Since I went to school today! I encountered different things that will make me frantic!!! First I got a low grades in some of the quizzes we had! Second my bag zipper was wrecked! So I spent my break time in fixing that stuffs! Third I don’t understand some lessons! I can’t take down some notes! Because my notebook is not yet return and I don’t know if it is already lost!! Fourth I’m tired to listen and to participate in discussion! I’m becoming idle now! And the Last… the worst!! The most awful! The most unfortunate one! When my teacher saw us cheating! Yes cheating!! I didn’t cheat or do some naughty things! Crazy… I don’t know how I will defend myself!! She put me on the spot! My image has been ruined.. I hate that… its quite unfair for my part and for the others who also accused.. I saw some of my classmates cheated! but they are lucky enough!!! I felt embarrass! It’s too unjust to humiliate us in front of everybody! I really hate that kind of circumstances! I hate to be blame! Because I’m not living here in this dreadful earth to humiliate people! Thats too nutty

Tomorrow??? I don’t know what will happen tomorrow! Our report card will be release!! I’m too unfortunate today and I don’t know if it will continue until tomorrow…. I’m worried! I’m anxious about my grades!!! I’m afraid!! You know that??? It’s hard to accept failures!! I will make me feel down!  I will just pray! I do my best but I’m frightened that they didn’t see it! Or appreciate it! My mind now is rolling and I really don’t know how will its stop!

Im very grateful for everything! im glad and contented in my grades! its really unexpected! I think thats the power of prayer and patience! now i learned the virtue of piety! My goal now is to maintain my grades and make it higher! i need to improve!

Im the most outstanding unlucky person in the whole world today! I met alot of failures! I try to think positive but its not easy! I dont want to happen that anymore! now i will assure that i will be cautious enough to be free from evils